So what now?

It was bound to happen; I mean there is no way the LORD would press the pause button on (please insert sarcasm here) my uber busy ultra important life, provide the means for this trip, simply to have me drop off supplies half-way across the world that could easily have been delivered via an international currier. HE has once again reached into the deep chambers of my heart, cutting through all the scar tissue created by unsuccessful attempts at my hopes, my wants, my dreams (yeah I know, me me me me)…in place giving me HIS joy, HIS peace, and HIS love.

How has HE done this, (again) you ask? Well, not much different than HE has always done, by getting my focus back on HIM and off of everything else. You be the judge; my body normally functions with 6-8 hours of sleep. And those numbers are a bit misleading too, we are talking about getting up and out of bed at least three times a night only to be better acquainted with the door jam—I swear that thing moves at night. On this trip, I have averaged 4-5 hours a night. A solid 4-5 hours where I border a comatose state. The big difference… my body is tired but my soul and mind are at peace because I am working for HIM! I am not burning energy worrying about the status of my job during a recession or wondering why I am where I am in my life at the age of 32. I don’t have time for that, GOD is choosing to use me here…or am I just being obedient here?

Ahhh, here is where the story changes from the countless other detours I have taken. Yes HE has my full attention, but this time I am not talking about that warm fuzzy feeling you get on a Missions trip from passing out candy that elicits a smile from a perfect stranger, this is so much more than a mountain top experience, THIS IS THE REAL DEAL! I finally get it that the only reason I am still here and not in heaven, is to point others to HIM, not to fulfill my desires all while making HIM a part of it all. Duh you say? Really…might I pose a question to you then? Why do you sit in a Bible study listening 40% of the time at best, while spending the other 60% writing, prioritizing, and checking off your mental “to do list”? Why, because our eyes are on us and not HIM. There is no way we would see a dying world and be as apathetic as we are, just not possible.

Don’t believe me? What went through your mind as you went over the pictures from today? Just how much did your heart ache to see these lil one’s? We do care, however rather than fanning that flame with prayer that beckons to be fulfilled with HIS vision, we casually dismiss it as a state of the world. I think of the account in the GOSPEL OF LUKE Chpt 8, where Jesus encounters a man who was filled with many demons. Upon his healing JESUS had to depart at the requests of the multitude. As JESUS was leaving, the once demon filled man begged JESUS to take him with HIM. JESUS responded in verse 38 by saying this, “Return to your own house, and tell what great things GOD has done for you.” You see, I’ll leave you with this last thought; our job was not done when we gave our life to CHRIST. We are not merely waiting for HIS inevitable return or for us to be joined with HIM in heaven. Like the demon-possessed man, HIS cleansing us of our demons is just the beginning. Now, now we are to tell everyone what great things GOD has done for us, so that they too may have a promised eternity that awaits us. I pray our hearts would break for the lost.